I am currently being faced with what thus far is what I would consider a turning point in my life much like that of a movie when the plot thickens that the story starts to unfold. In my case, I do not remember when but it started small, not minding who I kept in my company, and ended in forgetting about Allah. We forget in many ways, everyday. But the best advice that has truly stuck with me is turning our negatives into positive triggers to remember Allah SWT {link to brother youtube video}.
I do not believe anyone wakes up one day with the intention of drifting, but surely this is why we pray... to remember, to check in, to not forget about Allah SWT, and how much we truly are dependent, much like a child is to his mother. My why, that the brother is referring to, is powerful enough to change my perspective on my relationship with Allah SWT. From the outside looking in, the life we lead, all seems like a life full of restrictions. But, Allah SWT has given us nothing but safe guards to live by. Just as a mother warns and advises her young, we too are like children, not always able to comprehend the bigger picture, but indeed heed and rely on the one who protects, loves and nurtures us. But Allah SWT love for us is even greater than that of a mother for her child. And still in it of itself, we can not comprehend that type of love because of our greatest understanding and knowledge is that of a mothers love for her child, Subhanallah. We can only imagine, we could never understand, unless Allah SWT allowed us to comprehend. The greatest blessing that I am grateful for is the fact that through this difficulty I built a relationship through my salaah that in the end, left me longing to return to salaah and talk to my lord. I had never in the past seven years, experienced salaah the way I was able to experience it. Having no one to turn to, no one to depend on, but Allah SWT made me realize what it truly means to have all you need if you have Allah SWT. I realized I needed no one, and nothing but Allah SWT and with out Allah SWT I had no one and nothing. I can only hope that I can in sha Allah convey as much as possible through videos I watched and my take on them, and my journey, the beauty of finding Allah SWT. As salaamu aliakym. I hope all is well with you and your family are in good health, mentally and emotionally. I have taken a liking to Sister Haleh Banani, and her sessions built around bettering yourself as an individual, while also building a strong faith and relationship with God. This session hit home with me because I currently live in the city, although I grew up mainly in a more country environment where everyone knew everyone, and people were more open to conversation, and overall just friendly. In the city it is viewed almost strange or different to spark up general conversation with a stranger, and everyone seems to be in a rush. Now, with cellphones theres even more of disconnect with the people around you, and random acts of kindness may also seem strange, or even questioned. But sister Haleh brings back to light the proper perspective to random acts of kindness, and paying it forward. In sha Allah, I hope you find this as inspirational as I have. Please feel free to comment, and share. And subscribe to my blog for email updates of new posts.
After slowing down after a week or two into Ramadan, its always beneficial to regroup, and get motivated, or reminded again, why we are fasting, and what for.
I was going through something and searched remembering Allah on youtube, and I stumbled upon this beautiful video, ma sha Allah.
PAIN IS ONLY UGLY IF IT TAKES YOU AWAY FROM REMEMBERING ALLAH, PAIN IS BEAUTIFUL WHEN IT BRINGS YOU BACK TO THE REMEMBRANCE OF ALLAH SWT THE BEST WORSHIP FROM A SLAVE OF ALLAH SWT DURING A TRAIL AND TRIBULATION IS THE SLAVE PATIENCE DURING THAT TRIAL/TRIBULATION. and you can only be patient if you truly believe in Allah SWT. That to me is the true test. Will my servant remember me, or get worked up over this situation, this situation that they have no control over, or trust in me who has control over everything? just recently, my sister reminded me while I am currently going through a test, that I shouldn't focus on the other person, its their test too, that I should ask myself, why am I being tested with this particular thing? How is it that the shaytan can use this particular thing against me? And what should I do to really make it through this test? One thing I have come to realize is that people will wrong you, but in all actual reality they can't truly wrong you because Allah SWT is the all knower, all seer and all just. So, you may feel, (which you shouldn't but we are human) that someone is getting over on you, or feel foolish, but you have to be mindful that if you are doing what you are suppose to be doing, what Allah tells you to do, and you truly believe it in your heart, then you will get good deeds/rewards, and you will be at peace, knowing that Allah loves you, the ones who truly believes, and would never allow you to "suffer." If you can stop yourself, seek refuge with Allah from the whispers of shaytan, and remember Allah, and what he says, Allah will make your life easy. Someone else also told me, "learn your test faster!" ~ STOP being hard headed ~Dhikr Allah, Ace your test, so you can get your rewards from Allah SWT. Remember your lord folks! don't get wrapped up in this world, and all the lures it has on tv, radio, where everything is drama this drama that. Its just a distraction to keep you busy from pondering what Allah is telling you in the Quran. Its all their to keep you busy with it, instead of busy with remembering and seeking Allah SWT. Allah tells us, shaytan is our enemy, and shaytan tells him that he will come from every side, too take us off the straight path, once we remember that, we will breeze through theses test, and get closer and closer to our Lord. :) Sometimes, I find myself trying to harden myself because I am very sensitive, more so then those around me. But I've come to realize, there's nothing wrong with being sensitive. I was distancing myself from Allah and the way he has made me in an attempt to be "strong" or "like others" but I've come to realize that Allah made me this way. I understand things better when I'm myself, and yes I may cry over things other people don't and my heart may tremble over other things that others may not, but I'm okay with that. This is who I am. I realize that now.
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